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I used to be Pro Choice.  I even voted to fund abortions before I began to understand and know the real ramifications of what Abortion really is and what it does, (ends a life) and before I became a Christian.

Many of you who read my blogs, know that I myself had 3 abortions. I have 3 children in heaven and one day I will be reunited with them.

When I was 16 years old I was raped for the first time. I seldom talk about this rape, it was a friend of a gentleman I was dating.  We all were out at a dance club and my boyfriend at the time was the DJ.  A couple of his friends came and sat with me and my friends that night. ‘Date rape drugs’ were just being talked about, though they had been around for a while, we really were ignorant of them.  They are horrible. The remainder of the evening is still etched on my mind. I remember being led to his car and to sitting in a café. I must have been given more of the drug or it kicked in stronger because I then could not even move. I then remember being driven to his home, though I could not tell you where it was.    I was led with assistance into a bedroom that had a mattress on the floor where I was raped. I did not know why at the time that I could not move or talk and only the next day did it dawn on me what really had happened to me. This evil man told my boyfriend that I had sex with him and my boyfriend of course thought I was the most horrible person. I never told him what happened. I never spoke of that night again until I was in my 30’s.  At the time, I felt like it was my fault, and perhaps had I not been vulnerable to this evil, I could have prevented it. I of course no longer believe that lie. These men prey on vulnerable women and men and take advantage.

In College I was involved in a very unhealthy relationship which I felt was all I deserved. Rape often lies to a woman about her worth. After college, I went out with another man who was very prominent in our community.  I realized he was very unhealthy and not someone I wanted to continue to date, but that was not acceptable to him. Long story short, he broke into my home on 5 separate occasions and raped me at Gunpoint. I became pregnant and terminated that baby. I was prochoice at the time. It was a blob of tissue I was told.  I was pregnant from an evil man, why would I do anything else? Though no one ever counseled me that I could carry that baby and choose another family to raise that baby.  I was only told that abortion would solve my problem. My heart truly changed for the worse that day, I was hard already but anything that resembled a gentle woman was destroyed in that act. It is said a women can never abort her baby unless she herself has been ‘aborted’ in some way in her life. Abuse, rejection and other factors often change a woman’s heart to the point where she can then take the life of her own child. We have a lot of hurting people in our world.

I never felt worthy of having a good man in my life, even though I know that God brought some amazing men into my life, one in particular.  I never could commit to a healthy relationship. Inside I knew the horrible things I had done. It caused me to take the life of two more of my children from another unhealthy relationship.

I look at the women who march at the women’s march, and see a lot of hurting hard, hard hearts. I see women who have been given permission now to be as foolish and evil as I have ever seen.

When I gave my life to Christ, I was living with a man. The day after giving my life to Christ my heart had changed to where I knew I could no longer have sexual relations outside marriage. I told him we could no longer sleep together and the following day,  I told him he needed to move out. Two weeks later I found myself pregnant again. Being new in my walk with the Lord, I thought if the church I was attending knew that I was pregnant they would not allow me to come and meet with the Jesus I had just met and fell madly in love with. So I found myself listening to the lies and terminating my third child.

This abortion nearly destroyed me. Again it was my choice to terminate the life of my children, but not once did anyone ever say I had other choices. I was never told there was support for single moms, that I could choose another family to raise my children. Never did it even cross my mind. Abortion is legal, I thought that was what I must do.

It took me some time to allow the forgiveness of God to enter my heart. It took years for me to forgive myself. The love and grace of Jesus Christ began to heal the wounds and the hard heart that I had. I had to renew my mind to the truths of God. Who HE says I am, and what I have as a believer. I had so much religious teachings to overcome as well as the worlds and Satan. I spent 12 hours a day in the Word of God.  You see, my body had become physically ill at that time as well.

 I am profoundly, abundantly, pro-woman, pro-family, PRO-LIFE.

I am a pro-life speaker and advocate for the unborn and their mothers and fathers. Abortion effects everyone around it. A grandma, aunt, sister, cousin, a community!

Abortion has cost our nation billions and billions of dollars. One of the things we see in those who have terminated a child, is increased drug abuse, alcohol abuse, anger, promiscuity, trauma, depression and making bad choices in many areas of their life.

If you are still pro-choice, I encourage you to ask yourself, “WHY?”

Why would I make a choice to terminate the life of my own child, the life of the child your girlfriend, one night stand or wife is carrying. We know with technology now that it is a child, it has everything at around 7 weeks. Your babies heart is beating, it has feelings and there are thousands actually millions of couples who would gladly raise your child for you.  (there are 2 million families in the U.S waiting to adopt any child)

There is support and help at the over 2000 Pregnancy Centers across the nation.

You can choose life, and still fulfill all your dreams and finish college and have a beautiful life. Don’t believe the lie that you can’t and will not. Actually studies show that abortion effects the lives of the majority so profoundly that it effects your future in a negative way. These pregnancy centers never tell a woman what to do, but educate her on all her options as she makes a decision that will effect her for the rest of her life. These centers will be there for her and the baby dad & the baby if they choose to carry to term, for as long as they need them, offering support and after abortion care if they make that choice and need healing.

God can make a way when you think there is no way!

Contact Connie for inspirational & pro-life speaking engagements.

connie@cswmi.net  * http://www.cswmi.net  *  720-308-4333


About Connie

Author, Artist and Minister of The Word. I am blessed to have found God's healing that has changed my life. My book, "FOREVER CHANGED' records these experiences to help encourage others in their quest for LOVE, TRUTH, and HEALING. Go to my web www.cswmi.org I am also able to share this as a Keynote speaker at events and gatherings. I have a video available documenting my story. Produced by Andrew Wommack Ministries.
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