With the tragedy of the recent mass shooting in Florida, I am saddened for the lives that were lost and the families who are grieving the loss of their loved ones. I am sad that Satan has been given so much power in many people’s lives.

I think Jesus is the answer to the problems and evil we are seeing in our world, but this is going to take time.  I am not as knowledgeable as most about the various kinds of guns available, but while we are out sharing the Gospel of Jesus Christ,  I am in favor of keeping our 2nd amendment rights, but perhaps keeping weapons meant only for military to be kept out of the hands of those who are not.

Without Christ in our lives these things will continue in our world. Without Christ people have no way to vent their alarm and anger over the mass shootings. They want to control ‘something’ and so the only way they believe they can take control is to ban firearms, protest, carry signs and scream at those of us who believe in our 2nd amendment rights.

I purchased a gun after college. I never had a desire to own a firearm but had used various guns learning how to use them with friends who had them.

Some of you may know a piece of my story.  For those of you who do not, I dated a man very briefly after college, and after about 3 dates, realized he was not the person I would want to spend the rest of my life with, so I ended the relationship. This did not go well for me, as this person did not want to accept the fact that we were not a good fit. He began to stalk me and broke into my home on several occasions. On five of those, he proceeded to rape me at gun point and threatened to kill friends and family if I did not do as he asked or if I reported the rapes.

I did report him, and filed a restraining order after the first rape. Unfortunately I lived in a small town, he was a prominent figure there and was ‘protected’ by those higher-ups. So, nothing was ever done to protect me from him or to prosecute him. Actually my reporting him, made things even worse for me.  One night I awoke with his hands around my throat and he proceeded to throw me up against the wall. beat me, and raped me at gun point. I really was not sure how he got into my home, and figured he may have had a key made, or picked my lock somehow!  I lived outside city limits, and the first time he broke into my home, I had called the police and no one ever showed up. Terrified, I called a friend who let me come and stay with them for the evening,.

The following day, I called the police to ask why they did not come to my home. They told me I was not in city limits and not in their jurisdiction. “Why, would you not tell me that last night?” I asked.  They informed me I should have contacted the Sheriff instead. Why would they ‘not’ have told that to me when I called? …. Because he was protected!

There was another instance when I did call the sheriff, they came to my home, but told me they could not protect me 24 hours a day, they said they would come out to check on me occasionally and they suggested my ONLY protection was to purchase a gun. They said to  make sure I knew how to use it. They also informed me that if I shot him outside my home to make sure I dragged him inside before I called them. Seriously, at the time I weighed about 98 pounds and the man was about 198 and worked out regularly.

I took their advise…. finally,  after the 5th rape!  I was never raped again.

I lived in fear though, for quite some time. I had mace in every room of my home, I slept in my front room, so I could hear if he was trying to enter, and break into my home. I slept with the gun on the table in front of me and ready to fire.

This person tried 2 more times to break into my home and because I slept close to the door, I heard him before he could open the lock. I only needed to waive the gun in the air showing him through the glass on my door, that I was ready to kill him if he attempted to enter. I think I said, “I have a gun!!!”

This was enough to deter him. I am thankful that I never had to use it, though I would have.  I was ready, and he must have known I would not have hesitated to shoot him if I needed to.  He ran off both times.

He did continue to stalk me, but not at my home. He was very sly and often I never even saw him. The moment I would get home though, my phone would ring and he would be on the other end threatening to kill the friends I had been with that night, he would know even what I had for dinner.  You see, there are evil people out there and a gun saved me from this one. I believed he would have ended up killing me. I believe God gave me words to say to this man even though I did not ‘know’ God at that time in my life.

It was NOT God, allowing this to happen to me, It was not God helping me to be a stronger person. This was plain and simple a man who was pure evil, and I had no power without Christ in my life except a gun.

I did not share with a lot of people what was going on in my life for fear of their lives. One night I got a call from him from another city where some family members lived.  He had taken them out to dinner, he even had them say hi, to make sure I knew he was with them. He then left their ear shot and proceeded to tell me that he would kill them if I ever did anything to ‘ruin his’ reputation!!!!!

I believe in protecting myself and my family. I have a gun, I know how to use it and would not hesitate to do so, if anything near this experience were to happen to me or a family member again, and I would not hesitate to defend a child.

I believe we should have a trained armed guard at the entrance to our schools. I believe we should now have metal detectors and searches for every student, faculty and person who would enter our schools. WHY? Because we have created a world where evil has been allowed to live. We have pushed God out of our nation and there are evil people who think they have the right to take the lives of others, having no value for life but their own. We live in a time, where women think it is their right to kill the very life of a child they are carrying, and I was one of those, before I gave my life to Christ. Before I knew the truth, and the love of Jesus Christ.

As a christian woman, I am absolutely pro-life and against murder. But killing someone to protect yourself, a child and family is not Murder. It is self-defense.

As a christian, I believe I now walk in power and authority over the enemy, and prayerfully will never need to use a firearm to defend anyone. I have used this power to protect myself and others. It works. God is amazing, and when I tell even a part of my story, it is as if I am telling another persons story, because knowing and having Jesus Christ in my life has so removed any anger and fear and replaced it with HIS peace, love, grace and forgiveness, restored my Joy and I want everyone to KNOW this love, this peace and Joy.

I pray for this lost world to come to KNOW JESUS CHRIST, I will share Him and His love whenever I can.  HE is the answer the evil and all that is wrong in our world today.

A Gun saved my life, before Christ in my life. I believe in the 2nd amendment.


Psalm 36:1 says, “The transgression of the wicked saith within my heart, that there is no fear of God before his eyes.” 

John 12:46  I have come into the world as light, so that whoever believes in me may not remain in darkness.

Titus 2:12  Training us to renounce ungodliness and worldly passions, and to live self-controlled, upright, and godly lives in the present age,

2 Timothy 1:7  God gave us a spirit not of fear but of power and love and self-control.

Romans 5:13  May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, so that by the power of the Holy Spirit you may abound in hope.

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About Connie

Author, Artist and Minister of The Word. I am blessed to have found God's healing that has changed my life. My book, "FOREVER CHANGED' records these experiences to help encourage others in their quest for LOVE, TRUTH, and HEALING. Go to my web I am also able to share this as a Keynote speaker at events and gatherings. I have a video available documenting my story. Produced by Andrew Wommack Ministries.
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